Mental meltdown with my lit agent
I WAS HAVING A MOMENT
Hello friends, so I had a bit of a meltdown with my agent recently. I just woke up one morning in full panic mode — frightened about my career, making so many assumptions — so I sent him an email.
I was going to write about this, but in a first for me, I think me speaking about it will make more sense than me writing about it.
So here’s a link to the full video.
Just so you know, I sat down and did this in one take because if I didn’t, I probably wouldn’t have gone through with it. I start off the video by reading part of the email I sent my agent, then go from there.
For my writer friends out there, I hope this video helps you feel less alone when climbing the emotional mountains we all face when we pursue our creative journeys.
Dear Kern. Thank you for sharing! When I get an agent and a publisher, I’ll remember this worry, but for now I have to worry about getting an agent in the first place :) I guess what this teaches me is that the worry to live up to our own expectations never goes away. A big hug to you
In addition to writing, I'm a psychotherapist ... and often in my sessions with clients the idea of impostor syndrome comes up. I see it manifesting most commonly with people in two categories: helping professions and artists/creatives. People whose hearts are dedicated to their work. And that's what I heard in your video, Kern ... how deeply your heart is engaged in your writing. Thank you for your authenticity. I don't mean to impose that concept on what you shared, and maybe impostor syndrome is too strong a label. I only want to validate that you care so deeply about your work, and that's a beautiful thing. 💜