Remember this moment

LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE FOREVER

There will come a day soon when I look back at this moment with gratitude. The last few months have been my most difficult financial struggle in years. In the very same breadth, I’ve never felt more valuable.

Remember this moment

That’s what I tell myself every time I’m in my feelings; every time I start feeling suffocated from the pressure of my own expectation. I can close my eyes and hear drops from the rain dripping on my balcony. I can open them and see rainbows.

So I remember these moments.

All these years of writing has felt like an apprenticeship. But even as an apprentice, I knew I was building assets. Now these assets are ready to mature, and I’m preparing myself to be filled with the benefits. This type of transformation turns a seed into a tree; from the darkness of the earth to the tips of the sun’s rays.

I want to feel unrecognizable.

I trip myself out sometimes. I’m so aware of who I am, of what I’m becoming, that I don’t need to step back to make sense of it all. I can see clearly in the moment and this is the moment I’ve been preparing for since I wrote my first book in third grade.

But if I only looked at my current finances, I’d be blinded by what the world wants me to believe. That number doesn’t reflect my value. If anything, it’s even more validation that I’m exactly where I need to be.

Before every hard goal I’ve ever achieved, I had to swim from the bottom of my own ego. I had to fight against my own thoughts and unlearn the common criteria for defining my value. Money means something, but only as the outcome of my diligence, my persistence, my strategizing. When it comes in abundance, I want to remember this moment. Because I am just as grateful now as I will be when it comes.